my online journal day 1

as much as i wanted to see be walking by the time Ashley came home for a visit i walking some just not on my own. plus i least wanted to be walking by the time pixels came on that didn't happened. but i still saw it with my mother. life don't always turn out the way you want it to. but i know god has a big plan for me somehow. i now after this is all over he will help me with my attitude and eventually lead me to the right man. i am suffering a lot with pain as well as depression. the problem of my depression is the fact of loneliness. just want some one to be there. sometime you get dealt a bad hand and have to make it good. i  strive to do the best i can. keep on trying i cant be in a wheelchair for the rest of my life,