my online journal day 2

today started off good and revival starts at our church today and i think it might heal my spirit because i feel broken because of the disease and it has put me in a depression. doctors tried me on medicine that don't help. about the thing doe is talking to my heavenly father. also a another thing that does help is watching Adam Sandler. I listen to Joel osteen  on tv and christian music to drown out my pain and suffering. but glory to go i am still here. my dreams change because of this thing but i am a fighter. one thing i wanted to get well and try hunting mr. right and take a vacation to a place away from here.

my online journal day 1

as much as i wanted to see be walking by the time Ashley came home for a visit i walking some just not on my own. plus i least wanted to be walking by the time pixels came on that didn't happened. but i still saw it with my mother. life don't always turn out the way you want it to. but i know god has a big plan for me somehow. i now after this is all over he will help me with my attitude and eventually lead me to the right man. i am suffering a lot with pain as well as depression. the problem of my depression is the fact of loneliness. just want some one to be there. sometime you get dealt a bad hand and have to make it good. i  strive to do the best i can. keep on trying i cant be in a wheelchair for the rest of my life,  

the recovery

even though its been a long road. ever since alacare  release me where i could now do rehab at the hospital the water aerobics help a lot with the pain. i stood up at church to sing america the beautiful. i am now getting my life back. i thank god for great family and friends. terrific church family. i am grateful for the thoughts and prayers. i had a bible with me read my scriptures and used what the word of god taught me. i know i was in the hospital the major holidays Christmas, thanksgiving  and my birthday this year. thats ok i get to enjoy it this year and accomplish what i want. i got three new cousins coming this year and i will enjoy them. as well as trying to learn how to cook more stuff.
the scriptures were i turned to were Jeremiah 29:11, psalm 23. one thing this taught me i know things work out for those whose love god.